Random Thoughts

We took our Texas friends to
The Statue of Liberty

I hate it when one tiny thing throws me off course.

I'm not sure what threw me off my course this week but I haven't been able to catch up.

I told a co worker I feel as if I'm running after a train and the train is moving very slowly but I simply can't seem to run fast enough to catch up and get on....and I really want to get on the train.

I feel as if I can relax if I get on the train.

I feel as if I've been off since Thanksgiving...

Ahh it just came to me, my college friend  from Texas came to visit Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

I took the day off on Thursday and Friday and I've never been right since and off course before she came as I was running around prepping.

I always thought my house was neat but then I realized it's in bad need of dusting and scrubbing of the walls. I hate that part, I think I need to hire someone.

Since Thanksgiving I haven't been doing my minimum 10K steps on my fitbit either and that has really got me off balance.

I got the fitbit in October for my birthday, my mother sent me money and said "Use it wisely!" So I did.

I can't seem to do anything consistently for 30 days. They say after 30 days (or is it 3 months) that something that you're tying to make a routine will finally stick.

I don't seem to make it the 30 days on anything but I felt I was doing well with the fitbit. I was totally addicted to every challenge that I was invited to...and then Thanksgiving came and well you know.

We introduced them to
Shake Shack

I'm a schedule person...I like to follow a schedule and when I fall off it's just so hard for me... I have every excuse..."Oh it's Wednesday, I'll start back Monday" ...

I realize I need to make every day a Monday in my head. Remember that god doesn't promise you tomorrow ONLY the present.

I know that if I made every day a Monday and did just one thing a day on my "To Do List" then I wouldn't end up with 20 things a day on my "To Do List".

I feel very uncomfortable today as if my pants are too short and my ankles are bare. My pants feel too tight in the thighs and I feel as if I just want to go home and change my clothes and it's taking a hold over my mood,...if that makes any sense.

When I found outfits on Pinterest to copy I feel more confident and less blah...I seem to pick out for myself the blah outfits and pinterest inspires me to be less blah....

I didn't meal prep for December at all due to Thanksgiving and then I never jumped back on due to my college friends visit and now my excuse is "But we're almost done with December"

I just took a nice leisurely stroll outside and the weather is beautiful and I told myself as I walked that today is the day, don't wait for Monday or January...make your change today. Don't let other forces or other people steer you away from doing what you KNOW to be right.

We couldn't let them leave
with out the beach!

In my head I'm talking about my husband. He's diabetic and I try to meal prep with him in mind. But yet when he cooks he seems to steer towards the opposite. I sometimes wonder if he feels he can cheat on meals when he cooks as he knows he'll make up for it when I cook.

I ordered pizza every Tuesday in November when it was my night to cook as I got so disenchanted with making diabetic meal choice efforts that I was putting forth and him not appreciating it or not even eating it.

But during my walk today I realized I need to make the choices because I know it's right or because it's what I want to eat.

I shouldn't stop just because of whatever reason I conceive or rational or because I'm mad.

I feel as if this blog post ramble is an early new years resolution or something...

And while I'm at it, I need to stop messing with gluten as I know it doesn't agree with me and I don't need to wait for a doctor to tell me so.

hmmm 10k fitbit steps I'm coming for you today.....