So much I want to say so much I want to keep private.

So I haven't blogged in a while but I just spent TWO hours reading other peoples blogs!!! I tell ya.

But for those of you that have blogs do you ever find that often there's so much that you want to say and so much that you want to keep private??? To the point that you just don't say anything at all???

I guess that's how I feel. My friend T threw me a baby shower last Saturday....it was kind of a surprise but kind of not. Well I mean how the day turned out was a surprise, and the amount of people that showed up but chose not to RSVP to T was a surprise. The fun and love that I felt that day by all my friends, and family was great!! It was nice to feel special for a day...or remembered even.

I just read my friends blog about how we only live once, and how she sends emails, and letters to family and friends and never gets a response but she still does it because she knows life it short.

I guess that's why I felt so shocked to be remembered. I feel sometimes that I send cards, emails, packages and often times don't even know if the people received them if it weren't for the post offices return receipt. I tell myself I won't bother next year, but next year rolls around and they're on my mind again and I want them to know I was thinking about them...so I do it all over again!!! I guess some things are just in your nature if you don't want them to be.

Just like a nagging sensation comes in my head about once a week in regards to my cousins graduation that happened nearly a year ago. I had bought her a gift certificate and meant to print the best picture from her graduation photo's, put it in a nice frame and give it to her as a graduation gift...and to this day I haven't got around to it. I've procrastinated to the point that I had to use the gift certificate before it expired!!!! And yet it gnaws away at me constantly.....just like the time that something said send flowers to C's two aunts....I couldn't figure out what or who was telling me this...finally I had enough of the voice in my head and I went ahead and sent the flowers. So I guess I know what to do to get rid of this voice about my cousin huh!!!!