Ramblings as usual

I just went to an office bridal shower/party. I'm sure my attitude is non but stellar right now with being laid off and all, but still...as I sat I thought to myself "Is it actually impossible for people in corporate America to be honest and real with one another?" "Is corporate America ONLY about smiling in each others faces and talking behind their backs??

I got to the party a little late as I didn't want to be the first one there only to be subjected to the small talk, which I was never good at even before getting laid off.

I arrived after the bride and slipped in a side door with two other co workers, funny enough the two co workers I slipped in with have also been let go, I guess no one was eager to arrive on time.

I sat down next to a co worker that no one likes. I'm not quite sure if he knows no one likes him or for that matter if he cares that no one likes him. Me on the other hand, I like him, there aren't many people I don't like in life, everyone has at least one redeeming quality.

The "disliked" co workers starts to talk at nausea about how most marriages end in divorce within 10 years, heck based on the stats in most countries he's probably right but the look on the faces of the other co workers was classic, just for that I wanted him to carry on talking!

He has a voice that seems to dominate any conversation and I could hear the woman to the left of me say "If we all start having conversations maybe we'll drown him out".

The disliked co worker asked me what the woman to my left just said....I did the honest thing and told him what she said...who am I to tell a lie! Personally I thought it a tad rude that she said it out loud to begin with...and I know I started this entire post off with corporate America being dishonest, but I said nothing about them replacing honesty it with rudeness!

The disliked co worker just responded that she's always had a stick up her ass anyway and shrugged it off. I didn't expect much else from him to tell you the truth which is why I had no problem telling him.

I sat quiet most of the time just watching, listening, taking it all in, hearing the mean side conversations about people, observing how the men all sat at one end of the table and some how the woman had congregated at the other end of the table, and like always I was right in the middle.

I don't know why I always seem to take that empty chair that sits right in the middle of the men vs the woman. I think it's fear that if I sit too deeply entrenched within the woman I'll want to take the string from the helium balloons and hang myself, but then I don't want to be too far in with the men for fear I'll be subjected to the male testosterone bullshit that often comes hand in hand with corporate America.

That place right in the middle is fine with me.

I finally do speak up, I mutter something about loading a dish washer, it gets a jeer and negative response and I tell myself that I should have kept quiet like I was all along.

As things round to a close, you know right around the time when the room goes quiet as there's only so much "small-talk-bullshit" that people can muster for an entire hour, I finally hear the girl who ordered the beautiful cake tell the bride that if she cuts the rest of the cake up and freezes it it will last for quite some time.

As I watched and listened to the two interact I wondered what was the point of the entire conversation? Didn't she realize the likely hood of the girl taking that cake home and wrapping it up into individual pieces and freezing it was SLIM to NONE!

That damn cake will sit on the kitchen counter for max 3 days until both her and her fiancee get tired of looking at it, and then it will make it's way to the trash with not another slice ever cut, eaten or shared.

I sat around looking at everyone and thought...I wonder what act of god it would take for these people to actually be true to one another other......I don't think there's an elevator in the world big enough for us to all get trapped in to see what it would really take!!!! LOL