I wanted to just skip this one and say no one was hurt me of late, in fact no one hurt me directly, they hurt Big C which in turn hurts me.
But I know I'd only be lying to myself.
I don't think the Big C's step mother reads my blog anyway, and if she does....well I'll just write it as apologetically as possible so as to not offend, but I'll also speak what's on my mind.
Dear Ma,Thank you for all you do, you are a beautiful, strong independent woman.You are always there to support your granddaughter in all her endeavors no matter how far the drive.You take care of Big C's father with every ounce of your energy no matter how tired it makes you.You're constantly trying to find ways to keep Big C's father occupied and comfortable so he doesn't worry about his health. You do all the worrying for both of you.I love how you've embraced your retirement for both you and Big C's father. We appreciate and love everything you've done.I think that's why I was both shocked and upset with the recent text that you sent to Big C.I would have understood if the text had merely informed him about the deteriorating healthy of his father, but to end the text with discouraging remarks about his father was completely unnecessary and it hurt Big C more than you could ever imagine, no one deserves to be called "retarded".Big C called me at work the minute he received the text and I could tell in his voice before he even finished reading the text how confused, bewildered and upset he was. I hurt deeply for him as he read the entire text. I hurt for him the same way I did when he broke down and cried the day of his fathers open heart surgery. I wanted to scoop him up and hold him as if he was my child and take away his pain.I know that this period is hard on all of us and after talking my husband back on the ledge I started to believe that your text was merely written out of frustration. The immense weight that you must feel taking care of him, I know it has to be a tiring and daunting task.I forgive you for hurting him so badly and I know that time will heal all wounds.We love you dearly and count you as a blessing every day.Love~ Mel
I'm doing 30 days of blogging challenge! this is day 13, see the rest here.
I comend you for writing this - you're so brave. I'm going to have to catch up on my blog challenge
ReplyDeleteI was so moved by the way you spoke about your husband. The love you have for him reaches to the very core of me. I'm sure that this must be such a difficult time for him and it's clear that you are a great support for him xx
ReplyDeleteI'm glad I found your blog and to have met you! I'm newly following and look forward to keeping in touch with you on this journey!
ReplyDeletethis is a great challenge! glad that you were able to write this letter! must be difficult but important!
ReplyDeleteWell said. It probably wouldn't hurt if she happened to see it. Somehow I think she was probably treating Big C as her friend and confidant in blowing off steam and forgot momentarily that he was her son hearing about his beloved father. Sometimes I cringe worrying if I said too much when I take my adult children into my confidence. It is never a place they want to go.
ReplyDeleteI love this. Sometimes it's hard for others to imagine how their words can hurt someone and the people around them. I agree with Jin, you are so brave for writing this.
ReplyDeletewow. i read the list of things for this challenge and this was the one that I was a little timid about too.
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